On Monday I started school and the only word to describe that is dread. But now that school is back up I have no choice but to jump into the usual grind. This weekend I’m neck deep in work and all I can say is that the plan is straight A’s. This year I’m a junior in highschool and apparently that is supposed to be the hardest year of high school but I’m determined to attack the dragon and succeed. I feel like kids say that every school year but I feel like this is going to be my year. I feel like this is going to be the year of a lot of growth (unfortunately not height wise). So the plan is straight A’s, and figuring out what I want to do when high school life is over.
This was made on Tuesday, the 18th of August….
Yesterday I began my journey on a new adventure. The last few days have formed into memories I will never forget. I conquered many “firsts”. For instance I’m on a cruise for the first time in my life. Yesterday I went to a casino, won $20, and went to my first live comedy show. It’s been truly amazing. Today I went jet skiing, fell of a banana boat (twice), and went parasailing, all for the first time. It’s times like this where I can really appreciate the awesomeness of technology. Who knew that boats would be used for the vacation of a life time. So many people and friendly faces that you come to recognize. So. Much. Food. So much beauty. So happy. I’m excited for the rest of the trip although I don’t know if I’m ready for it to end. Here’s a few pics I snapped-
Right now I’m laying on my couch, listening to music, and video chatting my best friend. Obie, my dog, is lying rather odd at the end of the couch fast asleep. My crazy dog is lying on his back with his paws in the air and his head turned to the right.
Right now life’s pretty good not being tortured by school. Today (and all this summer) I’ve been watching movies and videos on YouTube. But not just any movie or video. The main focus has been Robert Downey jr. lately. He’s my favorite actor and his interviews are way cooler to me than other celebrities, mainly because of how he speaks. He uses big and weird words in normal conversation and it throws me off. Maybe I’m just dumb, but who uses the term idiosyncratic disposition in a normal conversation? He makes me have to look stuff up in the dictionary. About an hour ago I decided I’m going to make a list of every word Robert Downey jr has used that has baffled me.
In other news, my dog is much better now. He’s way easier to manage. He pees way less. My favorite thing about him is when I call for him he runs to pick up his toy then jumps up and looks at me like “hey I’m here, let’s play”. He’s honestly the cutest thing on the planet. The worst thing about him is that play time is all the time. You can pet him and let him chew on your fingers for hours but once you stop he will look at you like your crazy. He’s so conceited. If I’m laying on the couch and doing something on my laptop, he will jump up and lay on the laptop.
So that’s my update of my day today. I’m still enjoying summer, Obie is cute, and Robert Downey jr. is really cool.
In the ninth grade I took AP Human Geography. My teacher was funny but a little rude and a little closed minded and pessimistic. But he said something last year that kind of stuck with me. He said that our parents misguide us when they say that we are special. He said it makes us grow up to be disappointed by the outcome. I don’t completely believe this but it is somewhat true. All my life I have always thought I was going to live well. By well I mean that I think i’m going to have a nice house and enough money to go on expensive vacations and buy whatever I want. But I feel like everyone feels that way. In that same class I took in ninth grade, we watched a video saying that in everyone’s mind they are the main person in the universe and everyone else is side pieces to their life. But if you think about it we are all side pieces in someone else’s story. and not everyone is going to live wealthy.
I might not be that special person that doesn’t struggle with money or I could be. But no matter what I will struggle with something. I think that’s what makes us all not special at all but just completely ordinary and human. One person cannot be anymore human than another. The new saying should be that everyone is ordinary in their own way. Honestly, to me the word special is an excuse for people who aren’t wealthy or famous to describe why someone else might be. For example someone could easily say Beyonce’s famous because she’s special. That’s basically saying her fame had nothing to do with hard work or focus or dedication; If she wasn’t special none of that would matter. I think you can be special in a certain talent, but I don’t think that’s enough to become famous or wealthy. Anyways I still believe i’m going to live well. Maybe not because i’m special but because I will put in the work that it takes to get there.
This is a kind of rambly post. Sometimes late at night when I’m being deprived of sleep by my hyperactive mind, I have ideas and revolations. Tonight at 12:36 am I am thinking of all the things I believe about the world and the lessons I’ve learned.
I believe that I am less religious and more spiritual. I believe in the law of attraction. This is that what you believe and what you feel is what you attract. So if you believe that you’re going to fail a test then you are more likely to. It’s often hard to remember the law of attraction when you are in these moods. When you feel like absolute crap. But that’s a choice. You can choose to wallow in your sadness or anger, or you can think to yourself the brighter side of the situation or reassure yourself with a way out of the situation. For example, if I have a bad grade in a class I remind myself to stay positive because there will be more tests and next time I can be prepared for those tests which will in time bring my grade back up. I also believe in being grateful. It is honestly the most important thing. When you feel grateful for the things and people in your life you feel an overwhelming sense of love for life. Send someone a long text message about how much you love them. Stop complaining about the things that aren’t right and be happy about the things that are. Remember what and who is truly important in your life and make sure you don’t take it for granted.
I’ve learned that although it is important to help people it’s extremely important to not allow them to walk over you. If you feel uncomfortable with helping someone do something or you just don’t want to, don’t do it. I believe that, yes ,it is good to help others but it doesn’t mean you have to greatly inconvenience yourself to do so. Do what you can or what you are willing to. If you feel someone is taking advantage of your generosity make sure you cut them off immediately. You are not a bad person for saying no.
Finally, people need to stop making excuses and get something done. If you have been wanting to get something accomplished, do it. Don’t get side tracked. For example, if you have been wanting to save money so you can go on a big shopping trip or travel somewhere, do it! The only thing holding you back is you.
And in conclusion to my very strange and random post at 1:03 I am going to sleep.
Over this past week I’ve felt off. I think it’s one of those times where you realize that you are changing, growing, and becoming someone you couldn’t even dream of being. Someone surrounded by so many beautiful people and sacred friendships. Surrounded by family who loves you more than you could ever hope for.
Currently I’m having a sleep over with two of my best friends. As usual I’m the first person up by hours. But when I look over at these people all I feel is happiness. Happiness for this life. Happiness for these people that just know me.
I’ve moved a lot in my lifetime. And each time it has been a true emotional rollercoaster. But I’m lucky. Because in each person I meet I create a small home. My home is in every friend I’ve ever made. My home is in my family. My home is in every relationship that I hold dearly. I love these people. I love this life.
It is during these times, where you don’t feel quite like yourself, that you should remember who has been with you all this time. Remember the people who know who your are and all that you can become. Remember them and you will always know who you are. You’re the girl with familys in each state or city you have ever lived in. You’re the girl with the hilarious and crazy parents who never fail to show you shine from Shellac. You are smart, and kind, and silly, and beautiful, just like the people who surround you. You are the luckiest person on the planet:)
So a few days ago my dad surprised me with a new dog. I love him. With that being said he is the most frustrating creature ever.
Impatient Person + Dog + Pee= Shoot Myself
Dogs like to pee. A lot. And everywhere. The worst part is that my parents raised me to be a caring person who doesn’t find joy in others pain; so when my dad told me to discipline my puppy with a spanking my heart hurt. In this moment I realized that having a dog is like have a child itself. And I love my dog but I know now that I don’t want kids for a looooong time. For a long long time. Not that I wanted kids that much to begin with but receiving this puppy has turned me off from it even more. And again I love my dog with all my heart, but he is a lot of work. By the way his name is Obie. He’s a dichon frise and so freaking adorable. Anyways he is a lot of work. Never in my life did I think I would have to teach a dog not to pee on my foot. Nor did I think that getting a dog from underneath a bed would be the biggest pain in the entire world. I honestly think I’m too gentle for this job. Another thing I’ve learned from having a dog (in the four days I’ve had him) is that I have a few personal issues:
1) I am definitely not a patient person
2) I’m way too gentle
3) I have too many little things on my floor that could possibly be chewed up and destroyed by a dog
If I ever can’t find a sock all I have to do is let my dog loose and he will find it in a heart beat. Obie is very picky. He doesn’t like to use the bathroom in the backyard. He has to be taken on a proper walk or he will pee all over my carpet. He doesn’t care about treats as much as other dogs. It’s the strangest thing ever to me. He’s never been trained before so he doesn’t respond to snaps or claps or no’s or kissy noises. Last but not least he can’t just walk into or out of the house. I have to walk further in or out for him to go.
But I love my dog. I named him after Dylan O’brien from teen wolf (one of my favorite tv shows). His full name is O’brien. When he knows he’s in trouble his keeps his head down. He follows me everywhere. He’s scared of cars and bikes and basically any type of vehicle. All I know is that if I come home to another pee stain he’s sleeping outside.
So I finally found something to do during my break. I started watching friends. It’s been three days I finished the first season and im 6 episodes into the second. I honestly don’t know what took me so long to finally watch it. I was trying to think of who was my favorite character but that’s pretty much impossible. I did, however, figure out my ships. I fully ship:
Rachel and Ross
Phoebe and Joey
Chandler and Monica
I’m just super happy because there are ten seasons so it’s going to be a while before I have to find another TV series to obsess over. It’s hard trying to find a good tv series. When finding a show to watch:
-The drama can’t outweigh the funny or action
-There has to be an attractive character somewhere in there
– I need some type of romance.
– I can’t stand ridiculous drama. Like I’m taking a break from watching the fosters because they have fifteen year olds (who look like 20 year olds) threatening to have their parents deported and kids running away from home to live with their friend in a different state. Each episode I’m like really? These people are freakin drama queens. Anyways you got my point.
– I can’t stand love triangles. I had to stop watching both vampire diaries and reign because the “love” triangles got old.
So those are a couple of things I look for. Right now I’m watching friends, supernatural (the acting isn’t the best but it’s still pretty entertaining), bates motel (so freaking creepy), and originals. For future references what are some tv shows that you recommend for me? I’m a Netflix junkie:)
So I started spring break on Friday and it has been a weird experience. It’s probably been the first time this entire school year where I don’t have to worry about any school work. Every day I get up and I’m ready to worry about nonexistent homework and I’m actually disappointed. Now I have absolutely nothing to do and I don’t even know what to do with myself. I’m tired of playing sims, I’m tired of watching YouTube, and I don’t know what to watch on Netflix next. All my friends are busy so what do I do now? I honestly can’t think of one single thing and it kind of worries me. How am I going to get through the rest of the week? I’m literally going to die of boredom. Help!